ain’t really deep thoughts

after working with utmost dedication for 5 bloody years in a firm you think will safeguard your future, i felt ENSLAVED, and that PISSED the hell out of me. Big freaking time.

i am frustrated.

i am disapointed.

i am depressed.

above all i am just PISSED!

and i don’t give a shit if i am reasonable in venting out my angsts.

promotion should be an overwhelming blissful experience. a nirvana. ha! unfortunately, for me and a bunch of promising employees, the experience was like being trapped - no - condemned to the pits of Hades. The congratulatory greetings from my officemates seem like faint echoes; the title earned comparable to a fake China; and the salary increase, the benefits are like alms given to a beggar with a hesitant heart.

i feel like a second best. inferior. a loser. and this negative vibe is eating me up.

i’m pissed for being naive. i’m pissed fo being helpless. i’m pissed for being born a bourgeoisie in a third world country that i have to compete and continuously prove my worth to these cultured crooks.

positivity, that ain’t my thing as of the moment. to wallow in being pissed seems the best option i’ve got now.